nice way to end

well it's finally here.. the dreaded FOURTH WEEK!!

why is it so dreaded? because i decided to impose this rule on myself. after the 4th week i shall not go out after church on sundays. and i cannot go out on weekdays. even if i do go out on saturdays it's only for special reasons like birthdays, post-test celebrations or i'm just too darn sick of studying...

but at least it ended in a nice way. spent some good time playing 3 DOTA games with my church friends. they are by far the best group i've played with. not because we win (on the contrary...) but because they are just such nice people i dun mind losing to or losing with them.=)

felt a bid disappointed ( and yes insulted) that i lost all 3 games to strangers but after i found out that they took part in some national competition i realised they were expected to trash me anyway and i didn't feel so bad. haha

i miss those JC days when i could call my friend and we could chat for hours on end. that's all i ever want in a friend actually. and of course all the more so for future gf/wife. I love to talk and i do enjoy listening. so as long as we strike a good long conversation, chances are i would like to continue having you as a friend.

now i dun have anyone to call. it feels a little strange. right up till army, chatting on the phone was my favourite source of de-stressing or, just simply, having fun.(in army, it was more towards de-stressing and trying to salvage some semblance of a civilian life)

although it's been 2 years since i've enjoyed the luxury of a "chatting buddy", i still miss it. i feel weird calling that chatting buddy again. we've both been so bz it's hard to even meet up let alone talk on the phone for hours.

never noticed that i stopped talking till recently. guess it's cos for the 1st time, i had little to
do so far so i get bored sometimes at night when there are no games to play and i've already surfed all the soccer websites.

yesterday was the worst. i finished work at around 11 and i thought a nice chat on the phone till 12 would have been the perfect reward for my hard work(so-called). but who could i call? my good friend is busy and the rest i am not close enough to just call for no good reason

so i ended up smsing 2 people haha... i knew that there was a good chance i won't get a reply but well, it felt good to just sms out my thoughts to someone. it felt.. sincere..

even when it's just a sms.