A difference

Firstly, I must apologize for not writing often. It’s not that I don’t have anything to write about. I just don’t think it’s a good idea to tell you.

But in case any of you get worried, I would like to reassure everyone that I am fine. It’s just that some matters can only be written in a personal diary rather than share with you in a blog.

Why do I write in a personal diary? Because I still find that writing things out is the best way to clear my thoughts and know what I am really feeling. If any of you feel confused about a certain issue, I suggest you write it out. You’ll be amazed how much clearer you would be. You may think you wouldn’t know what to write but I feel that once you start, the words will naturally flow from your heart. Writing is just a way of sorting out those words and stringing them into coherent sentences.

I doubt I’ll write much about BGR stuff anymore. I feel that this blog attracted readers mainly because of my open-ness with discussing such a subject. So I suspect a lot of readers will be removing me from their “favorites” folder after they read this. Haha

Even so, I doubt I would change my stand. The thing is that I finally figured a lot of things out. Some things I can say some things I can’t. However, the bottom line is that I know what I want and I know that it doesn’t have to involve a girl.

And no I didn’t suddenly turn gay.

God is all that matters. So much so that even Miss Right would have to be someone who shares the same thought as me: that only God matters.

Granted, that would probably mean I just made it 10 times harder for myself to get attached. But if I have God, does having a girlfriend or not really matter?

However, if I did meet a girl who I share great chemistry with and is as crazy about God as I am, I would do all I can to be with her.

Because not having her or at least not having tried would only distract me away from God. And more importantly, having her would only strengthen me to stay close to God.

Thank you God for letting me realize that.

couples that look anything but

I have this new system in place where I save a draft message in my mobile so I remember to blog about it later. This post is the result of that system.

I was just thinking about those couples that look anything but couples. They seem like they could not be less made for each other. You would have thought that even if he was the last man on earth, the girl would still not want him.

Yet there they are, happily together and seemingly going strong.

Nice isn’t it?

I’m going to stop here because I’m a little tired of espousing theory after theory on what I think relationships are about. Quite frankly, the truth is that I could not know anything about such things. I’ve never been in a relationship before and what other people tell me are ultimately just opinions. Nobody can really say they are true.

I can give relationship advice though. But if you ask me what makes 2 people come together, I think I can only say “Only God knows”

So, to carry on where I left off with the previous post, the truth is that if a girl has to think about whether a guy “fits the bill” before getting together with him, it’s pretty obvious she doesn’t like him from the start. Sure, you can like someone only just a little but at least it’s better than nothing. Considering whether a guy is good enough should only be done if the girl already has some feelings for him, even if they are rather small.

One can’t go all out and say “love will conquer all obstacles”. I watched a documentary where the couple were madly in love with each other and got married despite the guy being unemployed and also rather unemployable. In the end, reality took its toll and they got divorced. I think it’s more because they had 3 kids and I can’t imagine how great the financial burden must have been. But the bottom line is that realities of life do need to be considered.

So I guess ultimately, there’s a compromise between feelings and realities. But that does not mean conjuring up feelings that don’t exist or ignoring realities that are too obstructive in the relationship.

oh boy....

This looks bad. Very bad. My supervisor is nowhere to be found and his colleagues can’t think of anything I can do for them. Put together, that can only mean that I have absolutely nothing to do today. Looks like I’ll be blogging the whole day.

If I had known yesterday this was going to happen, I would have asked for a day off from work today. Then I could have stayed up to watch the world cup semi-final between Italy and Germany. After which, I would have camped outside the Creative shop at Plaza Singapura. The reason for wanting to camp outside a shop is so I can enjoy a massive discount on mp3 players which is only available to the first 20 customers. And after I bought my dirt-cheap mp3 player and had gone home to sleep, I would have woken up just in time to finally enjoy a nice long lunch with my family. That would have been especially meaningful since my sister is back from Australia.

Yet here I am, typing away on my keyboard while surrounded by my small bosses and medium bosses. It’d be bad to look like I have nothing to do but I wonder if it’s worse to be using company time to blog. Oh well, there’s nothing much I can do I guess.

Now that I think about it, I don’t have to blog the whole day. I could help my friend from another department with his work. If you think I’m pitiful you should hear about what he does. Today, my friend will be spending the morning stapling plastic bags onto pieces of paper. After which, he files the paper in. This part sounds relaxing enough right? But here comes the disgusting part. He then has to sort out all the files and put them into the right cabinets. If he finds that a certain file is too fat, he has to separate the contents into 2 smaller files.

And there are about 200 files to do…

So maybe I should write a really short blog for now and go help him with his work first. That should be able to kill more time than blogging anyway. I started typing this at around 9am and I was hoping it would be 10am by now. Alas, it’s only 930! This is not good.

Not that I treat blogging merely as a way to kill time. On the contrary, I enjoy blogging. I even think I enjoy it more than DOTA. It’s just that DOTA needs less brainpower than blogging so I would rather play DOTA than blog after a long day at work.

The interesting about being at the office is that even if you do nothing the whole day, you still feel tired and drained. Maybe it’s because you’re so bored your mind just switches off so it feels like it was drained.

Ok it’s 940 now…
Well I’ll stop here for now. My friend could do with some company and I need the walk anyway. Blog to you later. Haha.